Releasing a Crow
I got to release a crow back into the wild today I volunteer at several places these days, now that I am retired. I tell people that I volunteer with animals, since my career was as a social worker, so I feel like I “gave at the office” with people and it’s now time for me…
The Toxic Power of Shame
Shame can be a shroud that dampens your spirit and claims your life As an elder now, I am humbled yet again by the power of deep shame when I do something that I perceive as wrong, as against my principles, against who I want to be. I intend to try and be the best version…
Bruises On Our Souls
Not visible, but no less painful I recently took quite a fall, and one of the resulting bruises is a wonder to behold. It’s huge, and now with colorful shades of purple, green, and red. I have been hiding it, I notice with interest, as if it is a shame to have fallen, another indicator of…
The Gift of Attention
Paying attention can be a gift of love I have reached the chapter of elderhood in my life. It came quickly, surprised me (and still does), and comes with lessons. Lessons and answers Love is the answer, the songs say. Love makes the world go around. Love will conquer all. Love is greater than hate. All these…
Random Moments of Grace and Connection
You never know when a gift will present itself I made it to the gym the other day, a success in and of itself. ( I claim my successes where I can these days!) I was working out when I noticed this woman not far from me. She was working out steadily, strong and focused,…
Birthday Hangover
From feelings, not alcohol I made it through my birthday yesterday. And I am surprised at the hangover feeling today. I feel hung over from feelings, thoughts, inner reactions, unsettledness. Don’t get me wrong. I am so very grateful to still be here, still alive and on this earth and able to experience it all. It…
My Last Day of Being 72
The next birthday is upon me Tomorrow I will reach the age of 73. The number still somehow amazes me. When did that happen? I don’t remember. It’s all a blur after reaching 70. That felt like a major turning point. Yes, I will hear age is just a number, life is what you make it,…
Listening to the Rain at 4 am
Lessons from the storms I woke up at 4 am to the sound of the rain coming down. This has always been such a soothing sound for me. I love the rain. The earth needs it. We need it. Speaking of storms, next week I will reach the age of 73. I am still amazed that…
Embracing the Darkness
It’s all part of this human journey I have been feeling the darkness that is part of life lately. It descends and drapes over me, feels familiar. I am learning to acknowledge and let it be. I think that the temptation to run from darkness is strong within us, that it can frighten us with its…
Talking Back to the Voices
The issues that I grew up with are always with me, but at least now I can question them I have been feeling so anxious lately. I am volunteering at several places that involve training, remembering, learning, tests, anxiety. I am retired, so I have time to pay attention to what my passions are. I love…
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