Embracing the Darkness
It’s all part of this human journey I have been feeling the darkness that is part of life lately. It descends and drapes over me, feels familiar. I am learning to acknowledge and let it be. I think that the temptation to run from darkness is strong within us, that it can frighten us with its…
Talking Back to the Voices
The issues that I grew up with are always with me, but at least now I can question them I have been feeling so anxious lately. I am volunteering at several places that involve training, remembering, learning, tests, anxiety. I am retired, so I have time to pay attention to what my passions are. I love…
Fun at the DMV
Opportunities for connection can be all around us Now that I am past 70, I must go to the DMV in person to renew my license. From now on, I can renew it for only 5 years at a time rather than the 10 years that I have been used to. I suppose they want to…
A Second Chance
Letting myself do what I wanted all along Being an elder now and looking back, it can be easy for me to ruminate on regrets, dreams that I wished I could have followed up on, roads taken that were the best I could figure out at the time, but not really in tune with my soul.…
Holding A Single Candle
Alone, yet connected to so many I walked to the end of my tiny street with my candle, tears beginning to flow. I had been following the horror of another person killed by Border Patrol, Alex Pretti, only weeks after the killing of Renee Good by ICE. I cannot absorb the pain at times. I cannot…
Your Character Shines Through
Our essence shows itself if we pay attention These are such challenging times in our country and in the world. I try to figure out the balance between staying informed so that I can participate, where and when I can, but also taking time away from all the news to re-center myself and find some…
Random Gifts of Love
Opening ourselves to the connections all around us As an elder, looking back on my life thus far, I see that there are so many ways that I have been loved that I might not have seen at the time. I think my view and definition of love may have been too narrow, too defined by…
The Grace of Stopping
Giving ourselves the gift of time to stop and breathe I woke up not feeling my best the other day. I am retired, so I have the luxury of not having to follow any routine or call off from a job, and I am very grateful for that. I realize that not everyone has this…
The Bittersweet Joy of Elderhood
Growing older brings gifts of pain and joy, sometimes in the same package Growing older is not easy, not always what we might want, but can bring such wondrous gifts if we stay open to it all. It is yet another holiday season. They come so much more quickly now. Sometimes the days can feel long,…
I Gave Away My Bike Today
Letting go of yet another piece of my past I have had a bicycle in my garage that I haven’t used for years. These days, I am not sure that I would feel safe trying to use it again. I love that some older folks bicycle regularly, but I am not one of those. This bicycle…
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